i reali duno wut to do now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i reali don wish diz to happen oso!!!!!!!

i already told myself not to cry..be strong..but i jsut cant!!!!!!!!!

awww!!!meifenn!!!!!!!please be strong!!!!!!

thx to my fren who is there for me when i reali need a shoulder when im down..

btw,i just cut my hair


5:25 PM
i've been spending my whole holiday by online-ing,watching tv and sleeping...i got ntg else to do..i've been telling myself since tuesday to start studying..but i just duno why i rather do something tht r wasting my time than studying..reali cant my help myself d..

im luking forward to hang out with evon and wei shan nxt tues in midvalley...i just wana go out!!!i don wana stay at home for the 2 weeks of holidays...

im lazy to go for my tuition class too..i skipped my physics tuition again today coz im lz to take bus back home..

im bored im bored im bored!!but i still wan more holidays!hahha!!

haven finish my moral essays and kerja amal yet..and i hv to hand in on the 1st day of skul reopens...aiks!!!

lots of questions pop up in my mind during diz holidays..i duno whether i shud enjoy my secondary skul life now by not skipping skul anymore?!secondary skul life is the best?!aHH~i just duno..i still hv around half year before i leave my secondary skul..shud i enjoy my secondary skul life to the max?!!but i just hate gng to skul...and i sked i will be regret 1 day...

4:26 PM
went to sunway earli in the morning...den went bak kinda earli..yeah~my 1st time gng bak so earli...haha!!mum wana go see him so i followed..yeah!my mum is the 1 who wana go see him and not me..so i texted aivin tht im gng..

she followed my car there...had a good chat with her in the car..i was vr vr tired there..coz woke up kinda earli..haha!!





1:08 PM
yorr!!i seriously very worry about my mum's handphone postpaid bill now..

coz my hse's phone bill already kena kao kao from her d....she keep on saying and saying and saying it almost everyday..i reali gonna cut down the usage of my phone d..

now im worry tht she will call him :(

if she gets her phone bill d,and see the same number appearing again..she sure will suspect something..just now she asked me who is tht,her voice sounds like she suspected sumting...aHHH!!im sked!!!!!!

12:40 AM
so damn fucking angry now!!okie!!im just too stupid..i shud not rely on ppl..i shud not trust ppl so easily...

yea..i duno anything about JNK thingy nowadays..im so busy for my mthly test which was on las mth..and mid term..just finished today..i don even have the time to online just to update myself..everytime i online,i will just check on my mails,friendster and others..coz each time i come back from skul,im already damn fucking tired...and i don even hv the mood to on9 so often like las time anymore..

okie..i guessed i shud be grateful tht u guys did update me about the event..but why didnt tel me about the tickets?!!!do u think it makes sense when u noe about the event,and u don even have a tix to go in?!!so wuts the point of knowing about tht event?!!!go there just to embarass urself?!!

i guess im too stupid to help my friends when they don even help u when u need them...just a small help,and they cant even do tht for u..

im just too stupid!!stupid!!!

yea..they don even need to rely on me anymore......and im the 1 who need to depend on them..im not active anymore..so what?!!im still ur friends!!at least tel me so i will noe..just tel me,i can go or cant go..its other matter..just use ur common sense and think..if u can go,and u got no tix to go in..wut wil u feel?!!

and if u can go,u got no tix but u can go in..and u r sitting alone there,separatd from ur friends..WUT WILL YOU FEEL?!!!

okie..conclusion,i shud not be stupid anymore..and i shud not help friends tht don even appreciate me as a fren...im already not in their mind,they think i had already lost into the thin air,so don need to inform me..haiz....

okie...wut i can do is to giv up everything!!!EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!

im a failure :'(

9:44 PM
yeah!!!mid term exam finish!!woo HOO!!no nit to face infront of the books everyday anymore..and no nit to sit at the so-hot place anymore..just hate tht place so much!!no fans!!and make me feel so frustrated everytime..

oh yea..exam we have lesser time to talk to our friends..and finally,can get to talk to friends again!!!talk bout dirty stuff..akakaka!!!

17th may..my sis's bday,our one mth and the day i went to hatyai..hehe!!well,my mum duno about us..so those who noe my mum,plz don let my mum noe bout it...or else....i duno wut wil happen oso..haha!!spm year!!

yeah..he did tht for me..so sweet of him..haha!!

chemistry paper 3 was okie..but i noe im gonna fail for it d..haha!!!

diz term exam's result gonna be vr vr bad...

tmr JNK gonna be in halo cafe,sunway 9pm..gosh!!!im having my tuition until 9pm..so how?!!!if im going,i gonna be late...so how?!!it has been vr long since the las time i met them..

6:11 PM
im in thailand now!!!after massaging...hehe!!!

miss me!!!c ya!!!

2:07 PM
mother's day las sunday..but we celebrated it on saturday in aunt's house..i didnt even wish my mum..haha!!yeah~im a bad daughter..already used to not wishing,if sudd wish,feel bit weird..so it's better not to wish..hahah!!!2nd week of exam...i just cant stand reading books everyday..facing infront of the books everyday..cant have a good rest..haiz!!reali hope spm finish faster..and i gonna have lots and lots freedoms..can hang out everyday without any worries..hehe!!


10:58 PM
MY CHATBOX IS BACK!!!!!

my blog is dead~!!i cant update as often as las time anymore..my mid term is just tomoro!!tomoro!!and im still blogging here..having bm1 and bm2 tmr..and the 2nd day~HISTORY!!gosh!!hopefully i pass..

for diz exam,i just hope everything pass...i didnt aim for A..i noe i cant get it..my form 4 all sucks!!wut to do,honeymoon year..so better don put so much hope on it..

i had my chatbox back coz i think my blog will be more happening with a chat box and not a comment box..so please make my blog happening again like las time although i cant update it as often as las time anymore..

congratulations to xuelin,she had successfully step into final for her singing competition..famous liao,don forget me k..tel me about the competition..maybe i will go too...akakak!!but too bad,he's not in final ):

haiz...mid term for 3 weeks..i cant stand it anymore!!i dowan to stay inside the room for the whole day with the book infront of me..cant sleep in the afternoon,cant talk to him..cant do anything for the 3 weeks!!haiz!!!

im gng to hatyai nxt sat,sun,mon..im still having exam tht time,but I DON CARE!!!i wana go!!lalala~!!

okie..will update soon when i hv the time..

1:02 PM
decided to go for superstar final yday..actually i don planned to go d,but mum asked me to go coz she wana see guang liang..reach there at 7pm..waited for bro to pass him his tix...

tht idiotic screamer sat bside me!!gosh!!i cant stand her screaming!!!keep on screaming just to attract their attention..as if they can see u..and i don think they even wan to see u!!!

kido called me when he reach,went to find for him..he asked me to sit in the same place as him,but i don wan to coz i cant even take a nice pic from there..its too far..my ori place is much more better than there..LOL!!

teng and me..we were bored seeing kay's performance and got irritated by her voice..

i was very tired tht nite..coz woke up earli in the morning to go to inti for SPM seminar..

not tht high compared to las yr..just vr excited seeing orange and henley performing..

KAY was the first female to get the title for superstar..congratulations!!

expected..but i still prefer hau's voice..xuelin,u will be vr hapie right now!!haha!!

after the show,went to toilet...met kido there,chit chatted..and wee came..say bye to wee and yi xin..den went off..

will blog about my seminar in INTI some other day..

Time change everything.sometimes i hope we can stop the time and we will remain the same forever.I really don wish this to happen in us.I LOVE YOU!!

10:47 AM